Continuing on from my previous post, I am going back to basics – simplifying things. So I’m going to revisit my goals, and focus on achieving them.


Ultimate goal = 130 pounds.        need to lose 80 pounds to reach this. I will post progress pictures for every 10 pounds lost


Goal = to be a healthy BMI  –  weight goal will put me in the healthy zone.


Run 5k.       this is more of a short-term goal. It could be achieved by the end of this year, and gives me something to aim for that isn’t completely weight-related. Once achieved, I can set a new goal.


To clean eat wherever possible


My main focus will be the fitness goal, it seems more achievable and in achieving this I will also get closer to my weight/health goals. my food goal is also extremely important, without eating well, I wont lose weight no matter how much I run.

you know when something isn’t working.

I have a problem.

I struggle with my weight and to eat ‘good’ foods. and the right amount of them. I eat too much cheese, and have a giant sweet tooth-especially for biscuits.

I give in to temptation all the time.

I’m lazy and don’t have any staying power, making sticking to an eating plan and exercise regime difficult.

I expect to see results quickly when I try, and when I don’t I loose faith in what I’m doing and end up weighing more than I did before. When I try and it doesn’t work, I want to give up.

I’ve weighed the same-give or take 5 pounds-for at least a year (probably longer), despite trying to lose weight. When I think about this I hate myself for not trying hard enough.

I don’t feel good enough to lose weight. I don’t deserve it. 

As it turns out, I have several problems.


The theme in all of them, is me. my opinions of myself, my lack of conviction and belief. What I’m doing is clearly not working.

I must not be exercising hard enough, or often enough. And I must be eating unhealthily and in big quantities.

If I were to do the opposite, I would be thin, yes? Because that is how the world works. Science.

Eat less, Exercise more = weight loss.

Simple formula…so why do I make it so complicated?

Eating habits are the first thing to tackle. I eat too much, I need to make my portion sizes smaller. When I am faced with temptation I need to remind myself that I will not reach my goal by eating this. Eat some fruit instead. Simple.


Running is an exercise I have found myself to like doing. It makes me feel good afterwards. I need to make sure that I am running every other day. Get into a routine of doing this, and I am less likely to give it up. Running in the morning was energising, however getting up early to go out and do it is hard. I need to try harder, and keep it up.

Swimming is fun, but aching the next day will stop me from running. aim to swim once a week, on a day that I have run, to utilise time to rest the day after.

Use the Nike app on iPod for toning and strength. Twice a week to begin, once fitness threshold improves, increase this amount.

Use exercise as a way to de-stress from uni work.


This is my formula for change, I need to do this for myself, and I cant expect it to happen at the drop of a hat. I need to work for it.


My blog has been alive for a year yesterday.

That’s an achievement to me because I don’t stick to anything very well, usually I give up or get bored, or, become too busy to be able to fit it in!

To celebrate, I was going to sign up to a 5K run at the end of November. Unfortunately, I’m unable to do the run because I have work. But that’s okay, I’m still going to aim for a 5K run by the end of November. I’ve been lightly stepping around my running, and not doing it regularly enough. It’s taken about 4 weeks to do weeks 1 and 2 of the podcast. I should be on week 4!

Time to pull myself outside and Get On With It.


There was a rather big storm today! so I didn’t really want to go running in it…it would be like swimming…so I actually went swimming instead 🙂

been meaning to go for a little while with the best bud, but we were both busy at different times etc etc….

had fun, I’m not very good at swimming, and I’m a really slow swimmer. the only stroke I know how to do is backstroke. I was practising breaststroke today, I’m really not very good at it, and am so slow that an incredibly obese middle-aged man lapped me a good 10 million times before he moved to the next lane up. oops. even Le Best Bud got sick of being stuck behind my slow ass 😉

the pool is 25m in length, 64 lengths make a mile. I did…drumroll…36. over 1/2 a mile. Yay! Definitely didn’t think I would do more than 20. At best.

Started to get the hang of breaststroke, the more I concentrate on breathing technique, the less I think about it, and the easier it is 🙂

Run? Ran.

Ok, so I havent run for a week. my fault.

Another solo run today, did the last mandatory week 2 podcast. week 3 sooooon! I listened to what it consists of, it’s quite a big jump. But manageable…I hope!

The run went well, I got a stitch, but ran though it. AND didnt get shin splint until the last little bit of my run. which was a nice change…

I was worried about running during lunchtime, as my route takes me through town. I was expecting it to be busy, and I don’t feel very confident running in front of large groups of people.I was going to edit my route and go a shorter way through the busy part of my run, instead I kept telling myself ‘I dont care what they think, I’m doing this for me’ and other motivational blah blah.

Lucky for me, it wasn’t busy, so all my worrying was for nothing. I was glad I didn’t cut my route short.

New week, new runs. I will keep up with this.

weigh day

Start Weight: 205 pounds

Current weight: 209

Progress from last week: + 2

Overall Progress: + 4

Technically I only put on just over a pound, but because of the way I round down last week it now seems like I’ve put on two pounds. perfect…I knew that would bite me in the ass. eating out didn’t help.

This week will be better.